Tuesday, May 21, 2013

The Pursuit of God by A.W Tozer

This is such a beautiful depiction of what the Lord has done in my life this year. It's a wonderful read and an earnest word on the heart of God.



Chapter 2

The Blessedness of Possessing Nothing

Blessed are the poor in spirit: for theirs is the kindgom of heaven. - Matt. 5:3
Before the Lord God made man upon the earth He first prepared for him by creating a world of useful and pleasant things for his sustenance and delight. In the Genesis account of the creation these are called simply "things." They were made for man's uses, but they were meant always to be external to the man and subservient to him. In the deep heart of the man was a shrine where none but God was worthy to come. Within him was God; without, a thousand gifts which God had showered upon him.
But sin has introduced complications and has made those very gifts of God a potential source of ruin to the soul.
Our woes began when God was forced out of His central shrine and "things" were allowed to enter. Within the human heart "things" have taken over. Men have now by nature no peace within their hearts, for God is crowned there no longer, but there in the moral dusk stubborn and aggressive usurpers fight among themselves for first place on the throne.
This is not a mere metaphor, but an accurate analysis of our real spiritual trouble. There is within the human heart a tough fibrous root of fallen life whose nature is to possess, always to possess. It covets "things" with a deep and fierce passion. The pronouns "my" and "mine" look innocent enough in print, but their constant and universal use is significant. They express the real nature of the old Adamic man better than a thousand volumes of theology could do. They are verbal symptoms of our deep disease. The roots of our hearts have grown down into things, and we dare not pull up one rootlet lest we die. Things have become necessary to us, a development never originally intended. God's gifts now take the place of God, and the whole course of nature is upset by the monstrous substitution.
Our Lord referred to this tyranny of things when He said to His disciples, "If any man will come after me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross, and follow me. For whosoever will save his life shall lose it: and whosoever shall lose his life for my sake shall find it."
Breaking this truth into fragments for our better understanding, it would seem that there is within each of us an enemy which we tolerate at our peril. Jesus called it "life" and "self," or as we would say, the selflife. Its chief characteristic is its possessiveness: the words "gain" and "profit" suggest this. To allow this enemy to live is in the end to lose everything. To repudiate it and give up all for Christ's sake is to lose nothing at last, but to preserve everything unto life eternal. And possibly also a hint is given here as to the only effective way to destroy this foe: it is by the Cross. "Let him take up his cross and follow me."
The way to deeper knowledge of God is through the lonely valleys of soul poverty and abnegation of all things. The blessed ones who possess the Kingdom are they who have repudiated every external thing and have rooted from their hearts all sense of possessing. These are the "poor in spirit." They have reached an inward state paralleling the outward circumstances of the common beggar in the streets of Jerusalem; that is what the word "poor" as Christ used it actually means. These blessed poor are no longer slaves to the tyranny of things. They have broken the yoke of the oppressor; and this they have done not by fighting but by surrendering. Though free from all sense of possessing, they yet possess all things. "Theirs is the kingdom of heaven."
Let me exhort you to take this seriously. It is not to be understood as mere Bible teaching to be stored away in the mind along with an inert mass of other doctrines. It is a marker on the road to greener pastures, a path chiseled against the steep sides of the mount of God. We dare not try to by-pass it if we would follow on in this holy pursuit. We must ascend a step at a time. If we refuse one step we bring our progress to an end.
As is frequently true, this New Testament principle of spiritual life finds its best illustration in the Old Testament. In the story of Abraham and Isaac we have a dramatic picture of the surrendered life as well as an excellent commentary on the first Beatitude.
Abraham was old when Isaac was born, old enough indeed to have been his grandfather, and the child became at once the delight and idol of his heart. From that moment when he first stooped to take the tiny form awkwardly in his arms he was an eager love slave of his son. God went out of His way to comment on the strength of this affection. And it is not hard to understand. The baby represented everything sacred to his father's heart: the promises of God, the covenants, the hopes of the years and the long messianic dream. As he watched him grow from babyhood to young manhood the heart of the old man was knit closer and closer with the life of his son, till at last the relationship bordered upon the perilous. It was then that God stepped in to save both father and son from the consequences of an uncleansed love.
"Take now thy son," said God to Abraham, "thine only son Isaac, whom thou lovest, and get thee into the land of Moriah; and offer him there for a burnt-offering upon one of the mountains which I will tell thee of." The sacred writer spares us a close-up of the agony that night on the slopes near Beersheba when the aged man had it out with his God, but respectful imagination may view in awe the bent form and convulsive wrestling alone under the stars. Possibly not again until a Greater than Abraham wrestled in the Garden of Gethsemane did such mortal pain visit a human soul. If only the man himself might have been allowed to die. That would have been easier a thousand times, for he was old now, and to die would have been no great ordeal for one who had walked so long with God. Besides, it would have been a last sweet pleasure to let his dimming vision rest upon the figure of his stalwart son who would live to carry on the Abrahamic line and fulfill in himself the promises of God made long before in Ur of the Chaldees.
How should he slay the lad! Even if he could get the consent of his wounded and protesting heart, how could he reconcile the act with the promise, "In Isaac shall thy seed be called"? This was Abraham's trial by fire, and he did not fail in the crucible. While the stars still shone like sharp white points above the tent where the sleeping Isaac lay, and long before the gray dawn had begun to lighten the east, the old saint had made up his mind. He would offer his son as God had directed him to do, and then trust God to raise him from the dead. This, says the writer to the Hebrews, was the solution his aching heart found sometime in the dark night, and he rose "early in the morning" to carry out the plan. It is beautiful to see that, while he erred as to God's method, he had correctly sensed the secret of His great heart. And the solution accords well with the New Testament Scripture, "Whosoever will lose for my sake shall find."
God let the suffering old man go through with it up to the point where He knew there would be no retreat, and then forbade him to lay a hand upon the boy. To the wondering patriarch He now says in effect, "It's all right, Abraham. I never intended that you should actually slay the lad. I only wanted to remove him from the temple of your heart that I might reign unchallenged there. I wanted to correct the perversion that existed in your love. Now you may have the boy, sound and well. Take him and go back to your tent. Now I know that thou fearest God, seeing that thou bast not withheld thy son, thine only son, from me."
Then heaven opened and a voice was heard saying to him, "By myself have I sworn, saith the Lord, for because thou bast done this thing, and bast not withheld thy son, thine only son: that in blessing I will bless thee, and in multiplying I will multiply thy seed as the stars of the heaven, and as the sand which is `upon the sea shore; and thy seed shall possess the gate of his enemies; and in thy seed shall all the nations of the earth be blessed; because thou bast obeyed my voice.
The old man of God lifted his head to respond to the Voice, and stood there on the mount strong and pure and grand, a man marked out by the Lord for special treatment, a friend and favorite of the Most High. Now he was a man wholly surrendered, a man utterly obedient, a man who possessed nothing. He had concentrated his all in the person of his dear son, and God had taken it from him. God could have begun out on the margin of Abraham's life and worked inward to the center; He chose rather to cut quickly to the heart and have it over in one sharp act of separation. In dealing thus He practiced an economy of means and time. It hurt cruelly, but it was effective.
I have said that Abraham possessed nothing. Yet was not this poor man rich? Everything he had owned before was his still to enjoy: sheep, camels, herds, and goods of every sort. He had also his wife and his friends, and best of all he had his son Isaac safe by his side. He had everything, but he possessed nothing. There is the spiritual secret. There is the sweet theology of the heart which can be learned only in the school of renunciation. The books on systematic theology overlook this, but the wise will understand.
After that bitter and blessed experience I think the words "my" and "mine" never had again the same meaning for Abraham. The sense of possession which they connote was gone from his heart. Things had been cast out forever. They had now become external to the man. His inner heart was free from them. The world said, "Abraham is rich," but the aged patriarch only smiled. He could not explain it to them, but he knew that he owned nothing, that his real treasures were inward and eternal.
There can be no doubt that this possessive clinging to things is one of the most harmful habits in the life. Because it is so natural it is rarely recognized for the evil that it is; but its outworkings are tragic.
We are often hindered from giving up our treasures to the Lord out of fear for their safety; this is especially true when those treasures are loved relatives and friends. But we need have no such fears. Our Lord came not to destroy but to save. Everything is safe which we commit to Him, and nothing is really safe which is not so committed.
Our gifts and talents should also be turned over to Him. They should be recognized for what they are, God's loan to us, and should never be considered in any sense our own. We have no more right to claim credit for special abilities than for blue eyes or strong muscles. "For who maketh thee to differ from another? and what bast thou that thou didst not receive?"
The Christian who is alive enough to know himself even slightly will recognize the symptoms of this possession malady, and will grieve to find them in his own heart. If the longing after God is strong enough within him he will want to do something about the matter. Now, what should he do?
First of all he should put away all defense and make no attempt to excuse himself either in his own eyes or before the Lord. Whoever defends himself will have himself for his defense, and he will have no other; but let him come defenseless before the Lord and he will have for his defender no less than God Himself. Let the inquiring Christian trample under foot every slippery trick of his deceitful heart and insist upon frank and open relations with the Lord.
Then he should remember that this is holy business. No careless or casual dealings will suffice. Let him come to God in full determination to be heard. Let him insist that God accept his all, that He take E things out of his heart and Himself reign there in power. It may be he will need to become specific, to name things and people by their names one by one. If he will become drastic enough he can shorten the time of his travail from years to minutes and enter the good land long before his slower brethren who coddle their feelings and insist upon caution in their dealings with God.
Let us never forget that such a truth as this cannot be learned by rote as one would learn the facts of physical science. They must be experienced before we can really know them. We must in our hearts live through Abraham's harsh and bitter experiences if we would know the blessedness which follows them. The ancient curse will not go out painlessly; the tough old miser within us will not lie down and die obedient to our command. He must be torn out of our heart like a plant from the soil; he must be extracted in agony and blood like a tooth from the jaw. He must be expelled from our soul by violence as Christ expelled the money changers from the temple. And we shall need to steel ourselves against his piteous begging, and to recognize it as springing out of self-pity, one of the most reprehensible sins of the human heart.
If we would indeed know God in growing intimacy we must go this way of renunciation. And if we are set upon the pursuit of God He will sooner or later bring us to this test. Abraham's testing was, at the time, not known to him as such, yet if he had taken some course other than the one he did, the whole history of the Old Testament would have been different. God would have found His man, no doubt, but the loss to Abraham would have been tragic beyond the telling. So we will be brought one by one to the testing place, and we may never know when we are there. At that testing place there will be no dozen possible choices for us; just one and an alternative, but our whole future will be conditioned by the choice we make.
Father, I want to know Thee, but my coward heart fears to give up its toys. I cannot part with them without inward bleeding, and I do not try to hide from Thee the terror of the parting. I come trembling, but 1 do come. Please root from my heart all those things which 1 have cherished so long and which have become a very part of my living self, so that Thou mayest enter avid dwell there without a rival. Then shalt Thou make the place of Thy feet glorious. Then shall my heart have no need of the sun to shine in it, for Thyself wilt be the light of it, and there shall be no night there. In Jesus' Name, Amen.

Thursday, May 16, 2013

Shalom

SHALOM שָׁלוֹם

This term has become to mean so much to me over the past 7 months. In it I find the GOSPEL. What it means to be a human. What it means the the Pslamist says, "My delight is in the law of the Lord." What it means to flourish. What it mean to be a daughter, a sister, a wife, a mother,a friend and a child of God. What it means to find vocation. In it find the true definition of freedom and love. In it I find an answer to the question, "Why did Christ come?" What did Christ do PERFECTLY that we could not do? What it means to be in the process of sanctification. And so much more.
 What does it mean? Most people know it to mean peace, it is used as a way of saying hello and good bye; but it means much more then that.

SHALOM:
THE WAY THINGS
OUGHT TO BE


Ok, so maybe it sounds really simple. But what does that mean? "The way things ought to be." Well first it points to absolute truth. Meaning there is meta-physical truth, truth outside ourselves that we have as a foundation. In it we also see the classical definition of freedom: the freedom to pursue a virtuous life, the freedom to live the way one ought to live; to shalom. 

If we go back the Garden of Eden we see that a beautiful picture of Shalom. God created and he called it good. He created the world, everything in it and then he made man. 


"Then God said, “Let us make man in our image, after our likeness. And let them have dominion over the fish of the sea and over the birds of the heavens and over the livestock and over all the earth and over every creeping thing that creeps on the earth.”"- Genesis 1:26

God created man to function in a certain way. He gave them authority over the earth to work it, to Shalom it. God created us in His own image therefore he created us to be creative authoritative beings. God also created us to be in relationship with people and Him. We see perfect relationship in God; the triune God. In God you have the father, son and holy spirit. The Son submits to the father and the Holy Spirit to the Son. God had perfect relationship in himself before he created. We also see how relational God is by the relationship between Christ and the Church, which God says should be the example of what a marriage relationship should be like. Christ loved the church and gave himself for her.(Eph. 5:25-26) Husbands are called to love there wives and wives are called to respect their husbands.(Eph. 5:28) Why would God call us to these things? Because he knows that in them we will flourish. He designed it that way. 
Know to this word love. What is love? Is it something we feel?Is it the same thing as loving tacos? No. We are grown put in a culture that uses language so flippantly that we have deluded the meanings of so many words. 
For example, you google love and this is the first definition you get is:
"love"-An intense feeling of deep affection: "their love for their country". Or "Feel a deep romantic or sexual attachment to (someone): "do you love me?". 

^ That is not love, that might be what we have made love but thats what love is.

Agape- Love as used in the bible. This is not a feeling (because feelings are fleeting) But a love that is unconditional, sacrificial, a willing of someones good. To spur someone on in Shalom. (John 15:13)

The Psalm 1 man understood that God created us for good, to do good, to created and to flourish and he knew where and how he could flourish or Shalom. His delight was in the law of the Lord. Why? Not just to keep the law, it was not a burden to him, but he knew that it was the greatest good. He knew he was created to Shalom.

Blessed is the man
who walks not in the counsel of the wicked,
nor stands in the way of sinners,
nor sits in the seat of scoffers;
but his delight is in the law of the Lord,
and on his law he meditates day and night.

He is like a tree
planted by streams of water
that yields its fruit in its season,
and its leaf does not wither.
In all that he does, he prospers.
The wicked are not so,
but are like chaff that the wind drives away.

Therefore the wicked will not stand in the judgment,
nor sinners in the congregation of the righteous;
for the Lord knows the way of the righteous,
but the way of the wicked will perish.



The most glorious thing under heaven is this:
That God sent his Son in the fulness of time to live a holy and righteous life. To live a life we could not, in our fallen nature live. He lived the human life we were created to live in Shalom. Then he died the death to pay the debt we could not pay in order that we might Shalom

Sunday, March 31, 2013

“Fellowship of the Unashamed”


 This was written by a young African pastor.Found among his papers in Zimbabwe after he was martyred:

I am part of the “Fellowship of the Unashamed.” The die has been cast. I have stepped over the line. The decision has been made. I am a disciple of Jesus Christ. I won’t look back, let up, slow down, back away, or be still. My past is redeemed, my present makes sense, and my future is secure.
I am finished and done with low living, sight walking,
small planning, smooth knees, colorless dreams,
chintzy giving, and dwarfed goals.
I no longer need pre-eminence, prosperity, position,
promotions, plaudits, or popularity. I now live by
presence, lean by faith, love by patience,
lift by prayer, and labor by power. My pace
is set, my gait is fast, my goal is Heaven, my
road is narrow, my way is rough, my companions few,
my Guide reliable, my mission clear. I cannot be bought,
compromised, deterred, lured away, turned back,
diluted, or delayed.
I will not flinch in the face of sacrifice, hesitate in the
presence of adversity, negotiate at the table of the enemy,
ponder at the pool of popularity, or meander
in the maze of mediocrity.
I am a disciple of Jesus Christ. I must go until
Heaven returns, give until I drop, preach until all know,
and work until He comes. And when He comes to get
His own, He will have no problem recognizing me.
My colors will be clear.
I am not ashamed of the gospel . . . Romans 1:16

Friday, October 26, 2012

"Lord, be strong in my weakness"


The adventure module: a five day hiking and camping experience in the woods with the purpose of knowing how to be with God, ourselves and the people around us. This week was the hardest week I’ve had at IMPACT 360 but it was also the most rewarding and fulfilling.
            Throughout the week we learned different Spiritual disciples that as believers individually and corporately we need to embody and practice. The two that were that most helpful to me with my walk with the Lord were solitude and church in session. The reason that these two spiritual disciplines were most influential is because I believe that God did speak to me during these times.
            The spiritual discipline of solitude was done earlier on in the week and it was a time were we took five hours to be alone with the Lord and with our self. Hule gave us three different movements to focus our hearts towards the Lord and to be with Him.. Hule also gave us scriptures to focus us on Gods words. During this time I worshiped, meditated, thought, prayed, and slept. It was a really intimate time with God. But a highlight that surpasses everything else is the Lord spoke to me. I don’t know if He has spoken to me before but during this time He did. The day before Hule was talk about breathe prayers and the whole first day I adopted my breathe prayer as, “Lord, have mercy” or, “Lord, help me.” During my time with the Lord He gave me my breathe prayer; after reading scripture and praying he gave me, “Lord, be strong in my weakness.” This was my heart through the adventure module and continues to be my prayer in my daily life.
            Another spiritual discipline that was really sagnificate for me was what I believe Hule called church in session. On Wednesday we went on a five mile hike and climbed a mountain. It is an understatement to say that that was a stretching experience for me. But the Lord gave me strange in my weakness. That night on top of the mountain we had a beautiful time together of celabration and Hule led us in a service. In his message he talked about the love and forgiveness of God. We also had a opportunity to take the Lords supper. That night I had a heaviness and brokenness come over me even though I had climbed a mountain and we were in a time of celabration. In my own pride and attump to not deal with what was going on inside I got up and took the Lord supper like everyone else. Right after I took the bread and the juice I walked over to the raill that overlook the river and as soon as my hands touched the rail the Lord gave me the verse, “The Lord is close to the broken hearted and he blinds up there wounds.” At that moment I felt such a love from God, an intimacy that He would even speak to me and a rest in what Christ has done for me.
             In conclusion, I have learned that the Lord really does speak to us in a very real way. I have always had a head knowledge that he does through His word and people but I don’t think I ever believed that he would directly speak to me, this week He did. His grace is all-sufficent and His love is over whelming. He shows Himself in personal and imtimate ways. 

This is our God. "For thus says the One who is high and lifted up,
who inhabits eternity, whose name is Holy: I dwell in the high and holy place, and also with him who is of a contrite and lowly spirit, to revive the spirit of the lowly,
and to revive the heart of the contrite." Isaiah 57:15